day 9: what's something in your life that you need to get rid of?
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I have an older sister who is obnoxiously opinionated. (Can you imagine me feeling this way? The audacity.) We don't always see eye to eye, but occasionally she hits the nail on the head when revealing her thoughts on how I'm managing my life. There have been a few people in my circle who she loathes— thinks they take advantage of my giving nature, make me miserable, and labels them toxic. I've aggressively refuted her observations but once I sat with it and considered her reasons, I agreed. This has been going on for years now.
There was a guy I'd been friends with since I was 15 who I had a strained relationship with. It was strictly platonic, but it was intense and we are both bruised souls so we latched on to one another trying to keep ourselves afloat. Unfortunately, what finally nudged me to let him go was when we took acid with a close friend of mine and he almost killed us. That was a very extreme and apparent situation. What's more insidious is when people smile in your face or verbally gush over how great you are but then don't gift you anything on your birthday or offer much intellectual conversation; just catch you up on the negativity in their life and the town gossip. There's no reciprocation or alignment in effort, life trajectory, or passions.
What I need to get rid of in regards to improving my self-care is vacuous relationships. Ones that only take & take & take and don't contribute to my level-up journey. I can think of four people who epitomize my ideal standard for a friend, and if peeps don't match their energy, then I swear I don't want it.
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